I heard you talk of wanting to get married one day and have a family. Those are words I used to be desperate to hear from you. I said I would never lie to you and I’ve upheld that promise. I still love you. I always have and always will, even when you don’t love me. 

I carried your child and lost it. I wish I had been able to keep him. I didn’t know if it was a boy or a girl. I just had a feeling. I named him. I named him after you. Ian Curtis James Broad. I think you would’ve made a great dad. I think I would’ve made a great mum. 

I know I’ll never be with you. Or if I do end up with you, it won’t be for a very long time. I’m content to wait though. I don’t mind waiting for someone as amazing as you. 

I’m still willing to drop everything for you. No matter who I’m with or where I am. My heart will always be yours.